i sorta quarrelled with her.
SORT OF
sigh. but now it's okay alr.

what's wrong with me?
so have i lost a friend? no right?
im short tempered?

i actually cried.
i dont know why. sigh.
maybe i didnt expected to quarrel with her?

seriously, i know it was a joke but ... okay i get it lah.

she said this i think last night arh?
"i want you to feel the feelings i get too."
something like that.
it was a joke at that time. seriously.
after she say that we actually laughed.
but it sounded a little serious.

then i got this msg from somebody this morning.
"go read her blog."

cos i was outside and i couldnt get home till late.
then that somebody told me briefly,
and i msg-ed her, and i am sure i sounded like a sucker.
then later i was thinking why i was so angry,
and i msg-ed her again say sorry.
but i felt a bit betrayed also
cos i didnt expect her to mean it.
"i want you to feel the feeling i get."

*did you mean it? hope not, if you really wanted me to get the feeling,
now i get it. and i am sorry.

i also dont know what is wrong with me.
i've been so sensitive to everything.

and now that somebody wont talk to me.
unless i dont mind the rumours.
i mean if we start to msg again and stuff,
rumours will be there anyway and i mind it.

and i dont understand why guys wont mind rumours loh.

anyways. it is not over completely.

SORRYs.
TO HER
TO SOMEBODY
TO MOM for being rude everyday and make you angry!
TO EVERYONE, who is angry with me.

GIVE ME BREAK.