i really am going to be mean here.
so dont say anything about it when you see me in school or something.

here it is.

YOU SUCK.

you're obviously talking about me.
& YOU WERE obviously talking about me.

that friend of yours, is obviously talking LOUD enough for me to hear.
so ask her to SHUT UP.
even my friend, wont say who, said that she just like to talk loud act big
& speak those stupid word to make herself sound 'trendy'.
her attitude is so-not-nice.

so what if we TALK IT OUT?
wouldnt it be the same?
like last year. we were like that. & back to friends again.
& we carry on the "fight" again.
it repeated again & again. now it's the third time.
AND, i wont be able to treat you the same like how i did all along.
because im tired of it.

so you tell me what to do.
really what. cos i dont know what to do & cant do anything,
you tell me what to do lah.
if i were to act & be friends again, i ll do it.
maybe the act wont last really long if i try.

i didnt want to hurt you.
if i were to talk it out, you ll go crazy and scream.
that's an obvious thing. i know you too well. in this kind of thing.

im tired of you.
all your nonsense.
your crazy-ness.
your craps.

im not saying it's bad.
im just tired of you doing it.

maybe you&i is different, just SO different,
that we ll have to repeat the same route over & over again.

i know im hot-tempered and mean.
but you have problems too. not just me.
everyone has at least ONE or two problems.
do you think we can change them?
well if we try HARD enough, maybe we can?
but changing a person's personality is not that easy.

i pray almost every night,
asking God for help.
it ll work for the one day.
and wont work sometimes.

if i were to talk to you in korean,
it would be much longer.

i ll just end it here.
do whatever you want.
want to talk to me then talk.
if not just leave me alone.

if you continue to do it,
like talking LOUD for me to hear
or like posting about ur frus on me,
you wont see the 'nice' part of me.

not only you are frustrated.
not only you are having stress.

"In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent."

a nice bible verse that tiffany tam gave me! :D nice huh?